All the pain suddenly feels real, all the fear turns out to be useless, and the waves of pain that comes with growth washes through yourself, while you struggle to either let it flow through you and let it leave your body as it came, or in a reflex repress the pain, repress and increase it. And no, no. Become one with the pain. Live it. Soar in it.
Suddenly all the good and the bad that would never happen to you and only existed in strange worlds happens to you and you realise that you don’t know anything if you don’t feel love.